phd in october

as experienced via emails (going backwards in time):

21 october

got a rejection letter on friday.  one of those sad ones where the reviewers were split.  and since it had actually gone to reviewers in like may, it's been a long time waiting on that.  bummer news on top of my mess of a statistics nightmare. so frustrated.  trying today to do analysis for the project i have to present in a couple weeks - gotta get something to type up on a poster...  fearing the complex stats on this one.  taking 5+ minutes to run the thing which i'm not entirely sure i've correctly inputted syntax for.  fun times over here i'll tell you.
i just want one project's process to go smoothly.  seems to much to ask.  fearing i'll have to give up on my hope to do my thesis by publication too as time's running down on that clock.  still have something out under review, but the hope is fading against the clock.

16 october

been waiting on my copy of PoM to show up at my door?  i've given up waiting and figure i won't actually get to see my name on paper... rather disappointed about that actually.
i don't think i'll ever really have a 9-5 job.  although i was thinking about data stuff and stupid menial task work the other day..and decided that having undergrad minions is definitely something that goes in the "pro USA" job list.  i mean, for real, i'd love to have a research assistant to give stupid work to. and that's totally how things work in the US... 

been getting angrier and angrier on the data analysis front this week (and last).  as i actually have a deadline of getting data analyzed and figured out within the next two weeks.  feeling really angry today.  need help from the stats dude.  saw him yesterday and reaffirmed what i was doing.  only to go back to my office and discover another (new) problem.  stupid output not showing me the post hoc comparison test thingys.  wish it was an analysis procedure i understood, but i can't solve it.  and i've spent all day basically waiting for an email response to help which i haven't gotten.  losing days because of other people drives me batty.  if it's because of me, i'm okay with it - i mean not happy necessarily but if it's my fault then it's on me.  but this is aggravating beyond belief.  can't understand what's happened to october - was supposed to be my month. 

12 october

can't wait to turn [my thesis] in.  can't really fathom that point yet...seeing as i technically haven't really started my thesis.  but i'm trying not to think about that.  more worried about the confusion that is some data analysis at the moment.  hoping/needing to get some help on that asap.  
feeling a bit over the whole thing yesterday and today.  worrisome, but maybe if i manage to pin down the stats guy to help me (rough to do) i'll feel better. ... yeah i just want to ignore [my entire phd] for awhile.

10 october

realized that time is moving real quick for october.  got big plans of finishing off two other projects.  but these social media [manuscripts] have been sucking the life out of me.  have spent the last hour doing random things with the thought being that i'll just start my whole day tomorrow on the other project.  hoping my brain is ready for that. ...

08 october

the revisions i'm needing to have been making for the past few days are above my brain power i think.  tried to take a break away from it yesterday.  will see if i can get somewhere today.  also have other analyses for a different project to do but really just want to get the social media paper revisions done so i can attempt to send it off to a journal and commence the waiting/rejection.
i'm still waiting until christmas to decide how i'm going to (have to) write my thesis.  it's been long enough since i last submitted manuscripts to a journal for publication attempts that i've been anxiously waiting to hear SOMEthing.  if i can get something positive, then i'm hoping my thesis writing will be a bit along the lines of publication.  ...
spent most of yesterday re-running some analyses because i realized i somehow had two participants named the same participant number in my file which was affecting the analyses.  was not happy about that.  i mean i should be in the sense that i caught the mistake so that now it's correct. ...  so many numbers...

03 october

i just hate that i spent like an hour trying to deal with whether i need to use single or double quotation marks and just stupid stuff like that today.  got really frustrated with conference proceeding versus papers presented at conferences.  especially because i think i'm going to have to change the style from apa to something else anyway.  ugh.  

03 october

yo, random (yet not) question for you-- have you cited the IFPI report in something you're aiming to publish. and if so, have you done so in an apa style? and if yes, how?

:) i hate fiddly apa rules...