Monday, October 21, 2013

2013

it appears that i really haven't written about my experiences working on my phd in 2013. while i knew that i hadn't done much, i am surprised that there is nothing.

today is the 21 of october, quite nearer to 2014 than most of 2013.
that's a shame really.

i decided awhile ago that i might try writing a haiku as a way to express each day.  a haiku would be succinct and short and i thought that might work (i can't take credit for the idea; autumn has done that; i wonder if she's kept up with it).  i figured i'd get caught up with photos and the like and then institute it.  but, alas, here we are again.

i don't really want to have this be a catch up.  i think that distorts the reality of the experience in a way.  not being in the moment, but always reflecting backward upon it.  plus it doesn't help to continually look back when attempting to be able to look forward.

i also thought that i could use a series of email exchanges with a fellow phd student can probably fill in for part of my experience these last few months.  that writing is probably more real than anything else, as it's able to be phrased to someone who likely is the one best able to understand me and my phd.

today, and yesterday, last week, and the week before have been bad phd days.  actually today's been the best out of that lot.  but still on the negative, rather than positive, side of the scale.  data analysis issues and conflicts and trouble galore.  and impending (actual, real) deadline that doesn't help in the absence of supervisory meetings too.

i'm really tired of data issues. i was hoping to get through a project without them.  i've toiled with the others enough, i feel, to warrant one project without them.

i also got a rejection letter on top of that mess on friday.  while i'm happy to finally have an answer-- wait, i don't think happy is the right adjective... it's taken a long time to receive the notification, which means that it was reviewed.  split reviews leading to a rejection, in fact.  takes away a portion of the hope placed on the manuscripts as to making a decision about the thesis process by christmas.

spss is still (for the entire time i've been typing this post) trying to run an analysis.  they're taking quite a long time, you see, which is why, you see, i'm on the blogger website.

but back to the phd in 2013.  there's been some highs, some lows, some ups, some downs, a few accomplishments, and a lot of headaches, and even more drafts, analyses, and revisions.  no one could ever say it's not a twisted full-time adventure.

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